I write letters almost everyday addressed to you, but I never send them.
I go through my phone contacts stop on your name but I never call you.
You are the reason I’m always stressed, you are the reason I’m so unhappy.
"God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubts.”
Its more like all downs these days.
I can’t get a break.
Why should I be the one to call you first?
Why should I be the one to message you first?
I shouldn’t be the one who puts all the effort into things.
I’m done with some of this crap blame me for shit.
I don’t care anymore.
All you are doing is ruining our relationship even more then what it was.
But I still love you.
What do I do then….?
I wish I could say I want you by my side.
I wish I could say you mean everything to me.
I wish I could talk to you on the phone every night and have a full conversation.
I wish I could tell you what is really on my mind.
I wish I actually meant this, instead of just thinking it.
I’m more hurt then ever without you….